A Prompt Response
Today’s Prompt
What is your favorite drink?
So, ordinarily I would say Diet Coke. In fact, one of my old peers used to tell me they often judged how well my day was going by how much (or how little) Diet Coke I had consumed that day.
I don’t like coffee, I don’t like tea, so my caffeine intake comes from Diet Coke. And I don’t even like the aroma of either coffee or tea. One of my early memories is getting up one night as a child, seeing a pitcher of grape Kool-Aid in the fridge, pouring a glass, taking a drink, and realizing way too late that it was actually Iced Tea. Haven’t had any since.
But I’m not sure that’s really the question here.
I’m not a big drinker, not by any stretch. I’ve got health issues that sort of encourage me (require me?) to avoid alcohol. I don’t like the taste of most alcohols, especially beer, which I find just awful. Even the non-alcoholic beers just don’t do it for me, although I did try Zima a bit here and there back in the day. And more often than not, I’m the one driving. Add it all up and I rarely if ever have a drink.
Many of my friends and colleagues are aware of this. Many more tried over the years to get me to have one here or there. But it remains rare: the last time I had one was a failed attempt in New Orleans earlier this year to order a beverage that the bartender got completely wrong, and was simply not tolerable.
That was a Fuzzy Navel.
Somehow, they left out the orange juice when they made the drink. Which is most of the goodness of the drink. I actually like the taste of a Fuzzy Navel. When I do drink, it’s for the taste more than the experience.
About 12 years ago, there was an engineering wide company meeting in Santa Barbara. My manager, who lived in Irvine, and I were good friends but rarely saw each other. After dinner, I made the mistake of letting him buy me a Fuzzy Navel…because everyone I knew there saw me with the drink, and then proceeded to repeatedly buy me ones for the remainder of the night, even occasionally upgrading to my second favorite drink, Double Kamikaze Shots. Then they followed me around the rest of the night to see what happened, including my mild-mannered QA tester who insisted they would outlast me.
Sadly for them, I don’t really get affected much by the alcohol personality-wise, I just get chill. As long as you ignore the 1am ping pong game where I told my QA tester I was going to unequivocally kick their butt.
So, yeah. Fuzzy Navels. Once about every 6-8 years.
This post is one of many in my responses to random prompts surfaced by the application that tracks my website statistics, as well as any others I encounter.
Medical Technology Update
This week marks the 24th anniversary of my diagnosis as a Type II diabetic. The first 15 years were marked with difficulties maintaining my weight, diet, and a consistent blood sugar level. That all changed in 2018 when I switched doctors to an endocrinologist at Sansum Clinic in Santa Barbara. At the same time, the first iterations of continuous glucose monitors hit the commercial market.
Both events changed my entire outlook on how I managed my disease. I wrote about the impact of the first Dexcom device on my health in a post in 2018. At the same time, my doctor was really what I needed at the time. My very first diabetes doctor was a wonderful lady from Europe, but once I moved to the Central Coast, I struggled to find a doctor who had the right approaches to handle my condition. Switching to my endocrinologist was a literal lifesaver, as he worked with me to find treatments that worked rather than simply talked at me about what I should be doing.
And over the last eight years, the medical technology has continued to advance, leading to an unprecedented string of success in my management of my disease. One would think that over time success would slowly degrade, but the last two years I’ve managed to hit my best numbers yet, and maintain them.
For those of you who aren’t aware, the way diabetes is measured is by measuring the average volume of glucose in the blood stream over the trailing 3 month period. This measurement, the HbA1c (Hemoglobin A1c), is tested routinely every appointment. The HbA1c’s normal range is between 5.5 and 6.5, with anything over 7 considered to be diabetic. My target number in my head is 7 or lower. For historical context, when I began using a Dexcom, my HbA1c was a staggering 12.
This measurement is different than what the Dexcom measures, which is a point in time measurement of glucose volume in the blood stream. That normal range is between 80 and 120, and is the numeric value that appears on Dexcom’s monitoring app. For historical context, when I was diagnosed I was at an unfathomable 549.
As I mentioned in my previous post, which is worth a read, one of the things constant feedback allows is for the patient to have full visibility into how their blood is reacting at any point in time; I’ll admit at this point I understand way more about my blood chemistry than I ever wanted to learn. But the constant feedback allows for targeted action with insulin and diet.
The current device, the Dexcom G7, has come leaps and bounds in terms of reliability and accuracy. The device used to take hours to “warm up”; now readings after sensor application are available in about 20 minutes. The device used to be on the abdomen and could awkwardly catch on things, but now I wear it on the back of my upper arm. The applicator is easier to use, with a simple push button mechanism. And the technology on the phone has advanced to the point where it can extrapolate what my HbA1c will be based on its trailing 3 month data.
What this has meant for me is, I no longer fixate on what’s happening right this moment. I react to the changes in my blood chemistry as best I can, but I can also let things go from time to time, such as around the holidays. And this is because my target now is an average glucose level of around 130-140, which according to the application, loosely translates to a 7 on the HbA1c scale. That’s led to less worrying and less stress, allowing me to essentially push and pull on my readings as life happens.
This has been helped by updates to my medications, which are extensive. The biggest impact has been Mounjaro, which is a once a week injection that targets the blood sugar while also having the side effect of appetite suppression. Medications like Mounjaro, Ozempic, and Trulicity have been used for weight loss and have been advertised extensively in that manner, but their impact on diabetes can’t be overstated. I’ve dropped about 20 pounds and maintained that weight loss alongside the technology improvements that manage my life.
As a result, my HbA1c been under 7, and at times as low as 6.5, for two years running now. And to be fair, with less emotional burden or mental stress. Even at times like now, where the holidays have just wrapped up and I’ve had to deal with issues surrounding my job, I still managed to land a 6.8 for my trailing three month HbA1c score. I don’t fist pump often, but when I do, that’s the kind of thing that makes it happen.
And the improvements continue. Dexcom is coming out with a 15 day device (the current one lasts 10 days), which will reduce cost and make it that much simpler to use.
It hasn’t been easy managing my illness, but with all this assistance from my amazing doctor, medications, and technology, the last 2 years out of the last 24 have been the best so far.
Emotional Reflections – Job Search 2025
In March of 2025 I decided to switch teams at Amazon. I had been successful on both the Kindle and Partner Network teams, spending more than three years in each organization. I wanted to see what I could do if I had the chance to build something from the ground up. It was risky, to be sure, a new organization, a new manager, a new director, and a new team focus. Sadly, for various reasons, reorganizations led to the new director departing, and business challenges stifled our engineering plans. With no clear team charter as a result, I was impacted as part of the Amazon layoffs in October 2025.
I mention the circumstances because it’s important context for the emotions that follow. I was definitely not surprised it happened, and I had in fact cleaned out my desk the Friday before. Amazon has changed over the last several years, and not in a good way. It’s very Day 2 now, and in many cases toxic leadership-driven organizational cultures are rewarded even as those leaders poorly model Amazon’s Leadership Principles. I’ve learned a lot and enjoyed my time as an Amazonian, and am grateful for all of the colleagues I worked with. But in my opinion, the company culture has drifted off course internally. I’m sure that’s not a surprise to anyone paying attention to prevailing public opinion as of today.
So, while I was not surprised at the outcome, I was unhappy that a proven track record of success at such a challenging tech company could be pushed aside because of circumstances. I would still have made the same decisions at the time I made them, because they were the right ones when they were made. But I do admit I was very frustrated that despite my time of successful delivery and execution I still found myself in this situation for reasons outside of my control. And I did wonder what would have happened if I had not decided to change teams, even apologizing to my wife at one point for the outcome of that decision.
It was difficult telling my children it had happened. Even though they are both near adulthood, at 18 and 17, it’s still hard for them to understand the magnitude of the situation, especially when I am a rational thinker and I very rarely let my concerns show. I told them my full time job was now finding my next opportunity, and that that was what they would be seeing me do until I was successful. It’s important to model the right mental approach, and one of my strengths has always been clarity during a crisis. And this qualified, even if to them it felt like it was just “Dad needs to find a new job.”
All that said, I wanted to reflect on my reactions to these experiences as I’ve navigated my job search to what is a satisfactory conclusion, as I’ve happily joined Atlassian.
Initial Reactions
There is a general consensus that someone shouldn’t “spray resumes” out at any job postings once a layoff occurs. I’m going to disagree. From a tactical standpoint, this makes some sense. But from an emotional standpoint, I felt the act of doing something was cathartic and helped me maintain my focus during a difficult time. Emotionally, I wanted to take action. Emotionally, I didn’t want to miss out on a potentially great opportunity that maybe didn’t entirely align with my overall background. And from a “well let’s see what the world thinks of me” standpoint at a time where I was basically being told I was no longer needed, I did a lot of applying above my current level, for director positions and even some executive positions.
I got two positives out of this “spray resumes” strategy. The first is, I was able to feel like I was making progress as a few applications garnered interviews. The second is, I was able to take time and figure out how I wanted to rebuild my resume, but not feel like I was being forced to do that rebuilding under duress. Eventually I did cut back on the amount of resumes I was submitting, but I still took some shots at positions above my level, and still would apply to places that looked interesting even if I wasn’t a perfect fit.
I think cutting back entirely to only applying for very specific positions risks missing out on positions that might not have been the best fit, but that I would be excited about. It’s difficult to predict at any time how my resume might be received by a hiring manager.
The other thing that I did, and it was a mixture of tactical and emotional response, was to investigate the possibility of going back and getting my Master’s degree at my alma mater, WGU. There was one prerequisite class I needed to enroll in a Master’s program, so I took time to complete that course in between job searches. At times I regretted taking the class as it consumed time, but I wasn’t sure if I was going to find a new role and wanted to set the stage for alternative options, even if those were long term options.
Amazing Support
The outpouring of support was unexpected and humbling. As a manager, often you don’t see the impact you have on people even if you have established a solid relationship. And a lot of times, your team members don’t have the context or the awareness to recognize what you do. I remember one time someone I had promoted to Senior Engineer two years prior messaged me to thank me for all the work I had put into their promotion; they had recently sat on a promotion panel for the first time and realized how much work went into it.
Several people wrote heart-felt recommendations on LinkedIn, and people who I hadn’t spoken to for years reached out to offer support, links to open positions, and referrals, one of which led to my offer at Atlassian. I sometimes have difficulty asking for support or putting myself out there online, but the overwhelming amount of people reaching out to check in on me was amazing, and gave me the confidence to reach out more than I might. Ordinarily I’m the one helping others. I am humbled to be receiving similar help myself from my colleagues and friends.
Maintaining Confidence
One thing a layoff does, is it messes with your confidence. An overloaded, fractured job market simply piles on. My success rate in getting an interview was about 7%. I consider that high based on public anecdotes, but to be honest, my experience is pretty lengthy and pretty deep. The number of positions I was perfectly qualified for and didn’t get a chance to interview with was high, and those rejections pile up.
I knew enough about the public discourse to know I needed to buckle down and concentrate on the successes, but it’s always in the back of your mind that this situation might not end well. I come from a non-traditional background; I was 15 years into my technical career before I got my degree. The imposter syndrome is real. And it undermines you. I’ve delivered at every stage of my career, and delivered projects at Amazon. Surely I can succeed elsewhere?
I made a number of choices to keep my confidence. One, I ignored the negativity and shrugged off automated rejections as mostly unimportant. Two, as I’ve mentioned in other posts, I doubled down on having my resume and cover letter reflect who I am way more than reflect what an ATS wants to see. That alone helped reestablish my confidence as I went through all of my accomplishments, and reminded myself of all the good things, and then saw my application responses increase. And three, I didn’t abandon my instincts or my principles.
Trusting My Instincts and Principles
Once the interviews started happening, and I was able to handle those conversations mostly well, I was able to rely on my instincts and principles as I continued through my search. I’ve already spoken about the poor phone screen experience that led me to withdraw from a position. In another case, which ended on a very friendly note, a company had decided that they were not going to move forward after the first of two coding interviews. When I asked for feedback on where I could improve, the company actually backtracked and decided they were willing to go forward as I was “close enough” to code competency for a management role. I spoke to the recruiter at length and realized that it was unlikely that the next step, a front-end focused second coding interview, would go any better. We’d be having the same “close enough” conversation again after that one. I really liked the company and felt I would be a good fit, but they have their technical bar, and that’s their prerogative. So I withdrew from that interview loop as well.
In another case, I could tell from instincts and conversations that one company wasn’t sure what they were after as far as role, but that I could have a big impact if I came in. I’d been through a full loop and then two conversations with a senior leader, and they were still undecided. I would likely have accepted an offer at that time, so I drew a bit of a line in the sand and sent a polite email to the recruiter asking what remained in the process because I’d be happy to accept an offer if they extended one. They removed me from consideration the next day.
The one thing I did not want to do was make a bad situation worse by accepting an offer for a role I could tell might not be the right outcome. So I trusted myself and tried to not make any sudden decisions.
The Coding Interviews
The coding interviews varied quite a bit. I recognized that I would need to try my hand at LeetCode style challenges, and started working through those while familiarizing myself with the new AI tools and reorienting myself within Visual Studio. Eventually as the interviews started to come up I abandoned my LeetCode experiment, as I only had so many hours in the day and had no idea what questions I was going to get, and so no way to prioritize problem types.
One thing I noticed is that while companies say they aren’t doing LeetCode style questions, they still are, they are just hiding them better. One company’s task was to finish implementations of a preexisting feature that was essentially building upon a depth first search algorithm, even though it was more of a game-like presentation.
While these were the more fear-inducing parts of the process, I feel I did well in each one. I never felt like I was truly failing any of them, and after making it through the first one reasonably well, I was able to put the fear and uncertainty aside and ground myself in putting forth my best effort, trusting my ability to problem-solve, and leveraging my communication as much as possible. In particular, I felt that talking out loud at every step of the process in a coding interview, including articulating why I would stop to think, helped to keep me calm, while also allowing the interviewer a bit of a look into my thought process around trade-offs and other factors.
I am grateful my ability to focus enabled me to present myself in a reasonably confident way as I kicked off 7 years of programmer rust.
The System Design Interviews
The system design interviews also varied, but I felt I did better with these. In one case, an interview for a team that owned centralized product APIs, I basically sketched out a design that matched what their general plan was to coalesce their APIs. Historically back-end and systems has been my strength; when I interviewed for Amazon the design question I was asked revolved around being able to predict when an order of bananas could be delivered, and at the end of my walk-through of that plan, involving ordering systems, delivery scheduling, and a bunch of other things, the interviewer basically acknowledged that I had nailed what they did already.
Surprisingly, the toughest interview ended up being one of the system design interviews. It’s the only one I came out of feeling like I did not do well. I’ll own the fact that I probably didn’t do a good enough job at the time of getting deeper into requirements. That said, this question was another LeetCode problem dressed up as a design, where the only correct answer was implementation of a breadth search data structure. In addition, I think linearly and holistically; often when I draw out component structures I intend to go back and make adjustments as I think through the larger problem. The interviewer interrupted at every step of the way if one of my components wasn’t completely done before moving on to the next one, and threw my thinking off. I can see the point, each component should stand on its own. But if I’m building a system looking at it from a high level first before digging into details should be a reasonable approach if I want to make sure I am thinking about the problem correctly. This interview was a clear misalignment between my perspective of the level of the question and the depth the interviewer was seeking, and was the only time I felt myself start to overthink and lose my focus.
Final Thoughts
This was a challenging time, with a lot of uncertainty and a lot of uneasiness. It can be hard to remember who you are, and it can be very isolating. Control is illusory, usually in a negative way. In this case, though, things I had no control over ended up having a positive impact on my search. Anger and self-doubt do creep in, but they aren’t productive except maybe as motivation. I was able to wrangle those emotions and put my best foot forward in the face of difficult circumstances.
Be welcome and true.
Rob Hope 